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PublisherSimon & Schuster

ISBN-10198218258X

ISBN-139781982182588

eBay Product ID (ePID)19072087354

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Book TitleI'll Tell You When I'm Home : a Memoir

Number of Pages272 Pages

LanguageEnglish

TopicPersonal Memoirs, Prejudice

Publication Year2025

GenreFamily & Relationships, Biography & Autobiography

AuthorHala Alyan

FormatHardcover

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Item Height1.1 in

Item Weight14.7 Oz

Item Length9 in

Item Width6 in

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Reviews"A beautiful and intimate memoir of a life in the embrace of stories, Alyan weaves the fine threads of torn and fragmented lives into an irresistible, intergenerational tapestry. I was spellbound from the first page." --Naomi Klein, author of Doppelganger "A roaring cyclone of memory and imagination and harrowing tribulation. Surrogacy as metaphor for exile. Exile not as a dream for a better life, but as concession, a begrudging necessity. Gaza, San Miguel, Beirut, New York, Damascus--traveling with Alyan's prose is a thrill. I'll Tell You When I'm Home feels as rich and supersaturated as contemporary consciousness itself--I can't stop talking about it." --Kaveh Akbar, author of Martyr! "Gorgeously written and compelling, I'll Tell You When I'm Home connects the threads of personal and family histories as its author prepares for motherhood. Hala Alyan is a writer of astounding talent." --Lisa Ko, author of Memory Piece "This memoir of pregnancy loss and surrogacy is frantic, intimate, brutal, tender and beautiful. Over the arc of a pregnancy by surrogate, the poet offers up her fragmented heartbreak and kaleidoscopic life. I kept gasping, wanting to close in around Hala, to protect her across time and space from the sharp edges of mother-need inside a body that cannot birth a living baby. She wants her readers in the wound with her, inside the stories that don't get told enough, inside the body-mind of a displaced woman struggling to create something bigger than herself. Brilliant." --adrienne maree brown, author of Loving Corrections "Hala Alyan writes with sinew and tender force as she masterfully braids the delicate filaments that make a self--body, home, labor, loss--in such a way that the reader can never again disentangle them. This book is a gift, an offering of abundant beauty, full of deep insight into the intricacies of motherhood." --Alexandra Kleeman, author of You Too Can Have a Body Like Mine "An exquisitely written and unforgettable memoir about what it means to live with the violence and theft of exile and one woman's devotion to restoring her daughter's inheritance through the power of narrative." --Nadia Owusu, author of Aftershocks Praise for Hala Alyan "When plumbing the intricacies of race and womanhood, Alyan turns paragraphs into poetry." --The New York Times Book Review "Hala Alyan is a lyrical force, a much-needed Arab American voice." -- Etaf Rum, New York Times best-selling author of A Woman Is No Man "I don't exactly understand how Hala Alyan does it--conjures love, sorrow, betrayal, and joy; goes from being funny and warm to incisive and thoughtful--but as a reader, I'm glad that she does." -- Rumaan Alam, author of Leave the World Behind "No one knows the human heart like Hala Alyan." -- Mira Jacob, author of Good Talk "I feel honored to be alive in a time where I can read Hala Alyan, where I can devour book after book, where I can bask in her gorgeous heart." -- Fatimah Asghar, author of If They Come For Us

SynopsisThe rich and deeply personal debut memoir by award-winning Palestinian American poet and novelist Hala Alyan, whose experience of motherhood via surrogacy forces her to reckon with her own past, and the legacy of her family's exile and displacement, all in the name of a new future. After a decade of yearning for parenthood, years marked by miscarriage after miscarriage, Hala Alyan makes the decision to use a surrogate. In this charged time, she turns to the archetype of the waiting woman--the Scheherazade who tells stories to ensure another dawn--to confront her own narratives of motherhood, love, and inheritance. As her baby grows in the body of another woman, in another country, Hala finds her own life unraveling--a husband who wants to leave; the cost of past traumas and addictions threatening to resurface; the city of her youth, Beirut, on the brink of crisis. She turns to family stories and communal myths: of grandmothers mapping their lives through Palestine, Kuwait, Syria, Lebanon; of eradicated villages and invading armies; of places of refuge that proved only temporary; of men that left and women that stayed; of the contradictions of her own Midwestern childhood, and adolescence in various Arab cities. Meanwhile, as the baby grows from the size of a poppyseed to a grain of rice, then a lime, and beyond, Hala gathers the stories that are her legacy, setting down the ones that confine, holding close those that liberate. It is emotionally charged, painstaking work, but now the stakes are higher: how to honor ancestors and future generations alike in the midst of displacement? How to impart love for those who are no longer here, for places one can no longer touch? A stunningly lyrical and brutally honest quest for motherhood, selfhood, and peoplehood, I'll Tell You When I'm Home is a powerful story of unraveling and becoming, of destruction and redemption, and of homelands lost and recreated.